My Brother Kristian

An acrostic poem

©September 2009, Lauren Erica Baker, aged 9


Kristian, I feel your spiritual embrace,

Remembering your heart of gold and smiling face. 

I sometimes lie in bed and cry,

Sobbing to myself, “Why Kristian, why?”

Then I realise that you are still there;

Inside my heart there is a place for you, which helps me to care and share

And helps me to forgive and show compassion like you.

Never stop loving me and we will be one, not two!

Kristian by Lauren Baker
©Jan Andersen 2009 - 2023

All rights reserved
I Have a Dream by Westlife (original by ABBA), played at Kristian's funeral

Angel by Shaggy, played at Kristian's funeral



He loved both of these records.


Chasing Death: 
Losing a Child to Suicide

ISBN: 978-1-905399-44-4
Publisher: Perfect Publishers Ltd
Pages: 488
£13.99

ISBN 978-1-905399-45-1 (E-book) £4.44




£3 from the sale of every hard copy of the book is being donated to CALM, (Campaign Against Living Miserably), an award-winning charity dedicated to preventing male suicide.