Chapters
Chapter One: 
Kristian’s Story
Chapter Two: The Shock, The Disbelief, The Horror
Chapter Three: Re-writing the Script
Chapter Four: Trapped in an Agonising Storm of Emotions
Song for Kristian by Carsten Emil Bates, Kristian’s brother
Chapter Five: Wearing a Mask
Chapter Six: Resisting or Craving Physical Contact
Chapter Seven: Grieving in Your Own Way and Own Time
Chapter Eight: Referring to Your Child as “The Body”
Chapter Nine: The Day of the Funeral and After
Chapter Ten: The Family’s Grief
Chapter Eleven: Bizarre Thoughts, Actions and Secrets
Chapter Twelve: Memory Triggers: Sights, Sounds, Smells, Possessions
Chapter Thirteen: The Inquest
Chapter Fourteen: Handling Insensitivity from Others
Chapter Fifteen: Firsts of Everything
Chapter Sixteen: The Domino Effect
Chapter Seventeen: Re-focusing Your Energies on the Living
Chapter Eighteen: Dispelling Suicide Myths
Chapter Nineteen: Professional Views
Chapter Twenty: Life after Death
Chapter Twenty-one: Coping Strategies
Chapter Twenty-two: The Years Ahead
Chapter Twenty-three: Inspirational Thoughts
Chapter Twenty-four: Useful Resources
Conclusion
Poem for Kristian by Lauren Erica, aged 9, Kristian’s sister
